Below are the most recent 6 friends' journal entries.

Thursday, December 4th, 2008
_greenlight	9:42p	i love him .. FUCK fuckfuckfuckfuck. i fucked up, again. he broke up with me, again.. but this time, i think it's for good. and this time.. i'm almost okay with it. like, i'd do anything to have him back. and i love him, more than ANYTHING.. but i don't want to get my hopes up for us getting back together. i'm doubting it will happen. i'm still going to try.. cause i still have no friends at school, hah, and we ARE the "IT" couple. we really are.. but as long as we're best friends, and still hang out and you know, have the friends with benefits thing going on.. i'm almost okay with it.. for a while. then i start to think how much im going to miss him and. i honestly don't want to do this without him.. i can't. i don't want to live without him, and honestly.. i don't think im going to. i'll see how things go for now, but if we don't end up getting back together in a few weeks... i don't know what's going to happen. i can't do this. i love him so much. Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Friday, November 28th, 2008
ravenqueen	8:35p	Stupid People Okay now maybe I'm crazy but I figure if somebody hasn't called me in awhile then that means they don't really want to talk to me or be with me. Now if and when he does call doesn't give him the right to be pissed because I refused to bend over backwards to answer or return his phone calls. Now again maybe it's just me but I don't think you should expect a nice conversation with someone you are supposedly "dating" if you've ignored said person for the better part of a month or more. Hence why A gets on my nerves. So when he called and I accidentally answered the phone I hung-up on him. Which is one of the nicer things I could have done to him considering one of the things I've imagined doing to him was cussing him out but since I'm at work I decided to behave. Now on to the other stupid person. The hotel lobby is non-smoking. Yes there are ashtrays outside the main doors for you to put your cigarette out in. NOT for the morons that stay here to stand by smoking. Hence making the cigarette smoke come into the nonsmoking hotel lobby. As a former smoker the smell of cigarette smoke tends to make me gag so i know it must really bother nonsmokers just as bad. What happened to common courtesy and respect? I hope this day ends soon. Only 2.5 hours left to go. Raven Queen PS. Mike and I are going back out we're going to see how things work out. We have a date set for Tuesday. Wish me luck? Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: Josh Gracin: I Keep Coming Back (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 23rd, 2008
_greenlight	8:19p	fuck this . everyone says they care , but in the long run; you're really on your own. Current Mood: depressed (6 Comments |Comment on this)
_greenlight	4:41p	gravity journal. i think i'm going to try to start updating in here more regularly, like, daily maybe?  i don't know. today damian was supposed to come over to go swimming & bake christmas cookies ... then last minute he decided he didn't want to. i hate when he does that, it gets me all excited to see him .. then he just bails. ugh. he does it all the time too, frick . then i wanted to hang out with him tomorrow, even though i have a project to do .. and he goes and makes plans with his other friend, and i hate when he hangs out with his other friends, cause i never know what he's doing . plus he's such a ddick when he's around them. he tells me he's doing one thing, then does another, and it's not like i can talk to him cause he doesn't have a cell. i guess i'm clingy.. i don't know.  i have really bad anxiety, and i dont know why .. ugh . and he thinks i like this guy ,and  i don't. he likes me , but as far as i'm concerned we're just friends. and he's so jealous .i hate it. i don't know what to do anymore ..  i don't even want to live anymore , i've been so depressed and suicidal lately . he doesn't even notice .. or care. i just want to end it all. i hate my life, i hate my family. i hate my school i hate almost every person in it. i don't know what to do anymore . Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 22nd, 2008
hicsiguy	5:05a	That was the fastest I've ever devoured a book series And I mean EVER. I finished reading breaking dawn</b>, the final book in the Twilight Saga by Stephenie Meyer today. About five minutes ago. I will now proceed to grade this series as I see fit. All in all, it was an interesting story, however, a rather predictable one. Here is my grading scale: 5 = amazing, nothing could top this shit! 4 = good, I've read or seen better 3 = it had its moments, somewhat decent 2 = eh 1 = wtf, this shit sucks, seriously, my two year old niece writes better crap 0 = you totally lost me, could you repeat kindergarten and learn how to spell/read/grammar? Titles (twilight, new moon, eclipse, breaking dawn): 3 Main Characters: -Bella: 1 -Edward: 2 -Emmett: 5 (seriously, he has the most personality of the group) -Carlisle: 2 -Esme: 2 -Alice: 3 -Rosalie: 1 -Jasper: 0 -Jacob: 2 ++Overall: 2 Grammar/spelling: 3 General readability: 1 Chance that the books were printed on paper made from crack cocaine, methamphetamines, and/or heroin?: 5 Wordiness: 3 Stephenie Meyers' futile attempts to bring up reading level by inserting random "big" words?: 5 (for effort, purely.) Minor/Supporting characters: 0 Probability that I will never read the books again: 4 Final analysis: Books were definitely intended for teenagers, based on storyline, however would be better suited for the beginning reader, based on reading skill necessary to power through them. A person of college-level reading skill could very well power through them in 20 hours, if they gave up sleep and bathroom breaks. Grammar was not always correct, and the characters pandered far too much. Bella Swan is the biggest Mary Sue in the history of books that I have read, closely followed by Harry Potter. And if you love the books, don't flame me. I couldn't fucking care less, mmkay? (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 21st, 2008
ravenqueen	1:25p	My fucked up annoying family Why they can never seem to get along doesn't surprise me anymore but when I specifically ask them not to bring me into the middle of their fights then i think they should have enough respect for me to do as i ask. Is it so difficult to keep your fight between yourselves? Okay here's an example: My mom asked my dad if he was going to take the dog for a run in the park. He told her they didn't really have time since they were going into the next city for something and then he would have to come home and get back in time to go to work at 4:30. Okay now keep in mind it's a 30 min trip into the next city one way then 30 min back so that's an hour. Now while they were there they were suppose to be shopping for a present. At least 1 hour for my parents. Now that's 2 hours if they stick to that schedule. Now they were fighting about this stupid bullshit. Come on it was 2:00 when they were having this fight anyone with any common fucking sense can see that taking the damn dog to the park isn't really going to be in the best interest of everyone if they had just said okay we'll take the dog tomorrow and then gone on their merry way but no they had to fight about it for 30 min and now make everyone miserable and my dad late for his job. *growls* sometimes my mother can be really freaking stupid and so can my dad. Now after having been dragged into the middle of this stupid shit when I cuss them out for forcing me into the middle I get cussed out by my sister when she said i was over reacting. Which is bull because she also said i wasn't pulled into the middle of this crap. Raven Queen Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Seether: Fake It (Comment on this)